When can I FINALLY give no f like i said I would? Fuck.

If this is how things are gonna be time and time again so many times.... I'll not care (so much) anymore..

Many many times i ask myself just why am i even trying (so hard) for?

And then it hits me - to make up for what I didn't do when i could yet couldnt? And then it hits me again - it's too late, nothing will change, so why?

But im still trying.

Sometimes I'm amazed at myself for the things im actually capable of doing..... I'm sorry you had to see this side of me which I didn't even knew exist. Sorry.

This will be the last.

It might seem very little in comparison but trust me, it was all i could offer. I really tried.

Im sorry.

I wna tell you so badly that you assumed wrongly but itd just be me being in denial. Youre right.